I lack self -confidence and feel very much different from people.Other people are beautiful, smart and talented, while I am nothing but myself.I'm also the oldest in my sibling but my sister is the only one that responsible for anything.I feel like useless.I sometimes think that maybe if I die, everyone will be happy.But when I think about it,no maybe it's just me.Of course my mother was so happy to had me.My mom was supposed to have another child before me, but my mom accidentally aborted it with a pineapple.I sometimes think that if I'm the only one that die and the dead is alive,maybe they will be a responsible sibling than me.I'm just an idiot worthless excuse of a daughter.